Oh jesus flipping christ almighty! There's only 68 days till my birthday? The last I check there were like a hundred something..wow. Time goes by fast when everything is going to hell. Life is really biting me in the ass right now, and I can't even start to tell you why..it's just so..I don't know..it's just too upsetting. I'm hoping things go for the better and not the worst but I have a feeling that things are going to get even worse in the next couple of months. I'm sorry I haven't been on in like forever and that I haven't posted anything in god only knows how long. It's simply because of all of the huge amounts of homework I've been getting, and the suckish thing of not having a computer of your own anymore! (It broke! GOSH DANGIT!) I've been trying my hardest to be able to submit things on here, but I guess my hardest isn't good enough.
I hope all is well with everyone else.(:

So, it's Labor Day weekend, that means school is just around the corner, literally. School starts Tuesday..awesome..not! I am not looking forward to the new teachers, the countless amounts of homework, and year long projects that accommodate us all through the 10 months of school we endure. But on the bright side of things, I can tell that I am older and wiser than the beginning of last school year! ha..wow ok that sounded better in my head that it does now looking at it. :/ I cannot wait for my birthday..just like I couldn't ever other year. Only four monthssss(:

I started writing a poem like a day or two ago and I'm stuck on what to write next..it's like I was out of writers block for only three stanza's and then I'm back into the devilish thing again. Grr. Tell me how you like it so far?



If I were to love you,
my love would be true.

Not something made up,
and not something surreal.

It'd be pure and innocent,
like it'd be true and honest.

So, I really thought I was tired earlier..but when I tried to go to sleep I couldn't because I just kept on thinking. Some thinking leads to good things, it got me off of writers block and that poem is currently up for the whole world to see! It's almost 12:30am and I am not tired at all really..I don't know what to say lol but I'm just going to keep typing this journal up. I went on vacation in early July I believe, I went to the UP (upper peninsula of Michigan) with my family for a week. My father is really into photography, as am I, and really wanted my mother and I to take pictures of the scenery. Which I did, but my mom, not so much. I believe I took about a hundred some photo's. In September, I think September 12th to be exact, two or three of my photo's are going to be in an exhibit and up for sale in Chesterton, Indiana! Yesss! So I get to make some mulahhh I'm uber excited about this! I don't believe I have put any of the picture on here I took when I was on vacation, but I might soon. Wow, this is really getting no where. School starts September 9th, ugh, may I say, I am soooooo not looking forward to this? I've made enemies this summer...just because they are too afraid to say things to my face, and I tell them the truth. Why use Facebook as a drama center? I mean, if you have something to unpleasant to say to someone, why not say it to their face? It seems like perfect sense to me, but I might just be a little more mature then the people that go to my school. Oh the greatness in growing up among hundreds of people that think they are all that because they have all the designer clothing and money..it's pretty awesome knowing your worth nothing to them than just a homework doer.

My life has taken a big turn around in everything I once thought was good. I lost the love of my life, I've lost friends, and I am losing my family. This is happening all in the same month, and I just cannot take this. Everything is happening so quickly..it's terrible and horrifying all at the same time. I've been waking up day after day wondering "what's going to happen today to make my life even worse?" And my wonders never seem to be wrong. I've changed so much over the past few months I don't even recognize myself...and I can't tell if that's a good thing or a bad thing. This year went from the best year of my life, to the worst year I have ever experienced..

So an update for DA, I have decided to focus my account on photography, it will probably mainly focus on me, but also the outdoors. The reason for my decision is because I haven't written anything in so long..I just haven't gotten that feeling where I was all like "oh my gosh, I need to write something now! I have the most awesome idea!!" ..I mean, from time to time there might be some literature, but until those times it's mainly going to be photography.

Hey peoples, like the new artwork in my gallery?? I hope you do :] If you have any suggestions on what I should do that would be greatly appreciated because I have no clue on what I should do to keep you guys entertained!


So...life is good right now, I'm feeling more creative at the moment which is shocking!! I wish I felt motivated to finish the last question on my homework paper but ...I don't. :/ Right now it's snowing which makes me intensely mad! Just Friday it was in the mid sixties, and now it's down to the lower thirty's and feel's like twenty five degree's. Suckish right? Ughhhh, I feel so lonely right now, it's ridiculous!!


Might get my hair dyed again...I have no clue when or if I am actually going to get it done but I hope I do get to do it and that it's soon! I'm going to dye my hair brown again, since my hair went back to it's natural color, and get blonde streaks. Or I could do something entirely different..who knows? The 25th was my boyfriends birthday...if only he had told me sooner pshh. I would have gotten him a present and stuff but no, I wasn't told until the day before so there was nothing to give. I felt so bad, but everything is ok!

Well I better get off and do some chores and homework..

But first, how are you guys?? Tell me in a comment! I want to know everything that's going on :]

Bye loves <3

You know, there should really be a "Thinking About" area to fill in like there is a "Listening To!"